Brittany's Blog

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Ten Rules for Being Human

Found this when I was using StumbleUpon, just thought I’d share.

Ten Rules for Being Human

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

Happy New Year

Goodbye 2010 Hello 2011

For me, 2010 was a pretty big year.  I finished up my last semester of college, got my full G license and got a full-time job doing web design, what I went to school for.  This year has really allowed me to start taking those important steps towards the rest of my life.  I have always allowed others to take advantage of me and walk all over me, but this year I finally stood up for myself and told a few people how they had made me feel.  Didn’t always end the way I wanted- it ended up completely ending a few good friendships that had been suffering for a while -but at least now I will not be used the way I had been and hurt because they didn’t care about me like I cared about them.

And even though some things have started to change for me, there are still many things that haven’t happened for me yet that I wish have.  I still am at home most nights with my family, the few good friends I do have are away at school so I rarely get to see them and others are just never around to do anything, although some of us make plans they never end up happening.  On the same note, I really would like to meet new people / make more friends but that’s hard to do- it’s no fun going out on your own and even if I did I’m way too shy to just randomly start talking to strangers.  I still haven’t met a guy, and this is something that really bugs me because how am I going to meet anyone?  I’m either at work or at home, I don’t work with anyone my age and my friends are not around to go out with to meet anyone and are not around to introduce me to anyone they know either so how am I ever going to find someone?

Though there was good and bad of 2010 I believe it was a very important year for me and believe that 2011 will be too.

My hopes for 2011: break out of my shell and meet some new people, become more confident and maybe get a place of my own by the end of the year depending on my financial situation lol.

Happy New Year Everyone.  Wishing everyone a wonderful 2011! :)

Time For Change…But Where Do I Go From Here?

So still the  job search is turning up nothing.  And it’s getting really frustrating, not finding anything in the field that I went to school for, and it’s feeling like I just wasted my money.  I am ready to find a new job because I’m bored with what I am currently doing and fully believed it would be a temporary job.  I personally thought by this time this year that I would have had a job in my chosen field.  But things don’t always go according to plans, I know this well.  It’s frustrating and I know I need to do more to find something better, something I’ll enjoy, something where I’ll make more money, somewhere in a town or city, someplace where I could see myself moving to on my own in the near future… but that’s easier said than done.  Since web design jobs seemed to be very limited, and the few I’ve come across I wasn’t qualified enough (because some things we weren’t taught thoroughly enough, and in other cases, not at all), I need to find something else but I have no idea what.

The only kinds of jobs I’ve done are babysitting and customer service type jobs.  I like working with kids so it’s something I could consider doing again but it’s not very good money, and if I do decide to do something like that I will need to get my first aid and CPR training which would be good to have anyways but I just haven’t got around to doing it.  Nowadays parents expect it, and if I considered a nanny position, it is a requirement.  As for customer service / retail type jobs, it’s probably the most likely possibility but I’m not sure it’s something I would want to do, at least not long term but it is something I might consider: try and find a job at the malls nearby and then maybe able to consider getting a place of my own nearby.  I think I would like to find an office job, even though I’m not a fan of phones, filing and data entry type jobs are what I kind of expected I would do and because I have a diploma in a computer program, that should help me get into a job like that.  The only problem is I don’t know where I could find a job like that since they are not advertising online and I don’t know where to apply to just go handing out resumes in the area.

There’s always the option of going back to school next year, which I won’t completely rule out but I’m not sure what I would go back for and quite honestly hope I will have a job I like by then that I will stick with instead.  It’s only been about 4 months that I’ve been out of school but I truly believed when finishing college that in 4 months time I would find a job that I would like.  Even though I don’t want to be at the job I’m at much longer, I still sometimes feel as if I’ve just given up and decided to settle, doing a job I don’t particularly like just because I am capable of doing it and I wouldn’t need to start all over. Just wish I could figure what it is I should be doing, because I’m not getting anywhere .

The thing is I DO want to start anew, hopefully find a better paying job I enjoy going to everyday so I can get out on my own and start living my life, and doing so on my own.  But how do I go about finding this job so I can finally be independent?

Happy 20th Birthday To Me!

So today I turned 20… I’m done college… I’m looking for a good job, preferably in the web field but for now I’m still stuck at Foodland in the deli.  Though I know I’m still very young, it has really been getting to me that aside from being done school, not a whole lot is happening in my life.  I work, then I relax at home or head off to the mall on my days off and repeat this week after week.

For me, finding a good job and hopefully a job related to what I went to school for, is my biggest priority, trying to figure out where these job opportunities are has certainly been a challenge.  I’ve already been stressing about not having done any web work outside of school (other than my own personal site), and I’ve been ready to leave the grocery store for quite some time but I just don’t know where I’m going to go from there.  I sent out almost 30 e-mails to local web companies, very few even responded but all said “NOT HIRING”.  I was already worried after how hard it was to find a co-op placement but now getting few responses and negative ones when I did get a response is really making me worried that their isn’t much web work out there anymore.  Take sites like these: WordPress or Blogger, Twitter, Facebook, etc… it’s possible to have a web presence without needing a website made by somebody else that is going to cost you money.  There’s plenty of sites out there where you can set up a website for yourself in a matter of minutes.  It’s a little discouraging, and I’m not sure if I’m going to end up doing much with my diploma.  Regardless of what job I get, I still want- at the very least – to do some freelance web work.  But then the next big question is: where am I finding clients and how are they going to find me?  I have my own personal site, so if I can get my name out there and get people to know I am a web designer, then it shall be easy for them to find me, seeing how my URL is http://brittanydouglas.ca .  But the biggest challenge is getting people to know my name.  I potentially have a web site that I am going to be working on, it’s been discussed to some extent, but not really formally so we’ll see how that goes.  I figure if I can at least do some websites for personal contacts, even if it means doing them for very cheap, at least I will have something to show on my site other than school assignments, which when I look at them now didn’t even go into much detail aside from our final site which was a semester long project.

On the other hand, while I’m still young, I want to be able to get out and do things with friends, maybe meet some new people and have some fun, things that I kind of missed out on while in school since I practically worked full-time while I was a full-time college student and I also had to commute to get to school so going out after classes was an issue, not having a place to stay at in town and / or a place to leave my car.  I’ve been trying to allow myself more time with my friends this year- visiting my friend in Scarborough, spending a weekend in Toronto going to a concert and the MMVAs (which was a lot of fun by the way :D) and have a few days booked off to spend some time with my friend at her cottage- but even still I wish I had more opportunities to have fun with friends.  I’ve never been an extremely social person, so going out at night with friends isn’t something I really do- though I want to – there is always something that I’m worried about that ruins opportunities.  The littlest things make me fret and just take out the enjoyment of the plans.  And I don’t know why, but I find I’m often the only one who really considers all the aspects of making these kinds of plans to go out, for example: who is driving (therefore who is not drinking unless we have plans to stay somewhere else), work the next day – making sure you will be able to get there on time, what TIME we plan to go out (always bugs me when the time is not really specific or it’s specific and then people are late!), etc.  I am a worrier so yes I do over think things but at times some people just don’t think through all the important details enough so we need to find some sort of balance.

All in all I’m ready to really start moving forward in my life, and enjoying life in the process but there are still so many things that are not coming together yet.  I am looking forward to finding a good paying job that I enjoy.  I am looking forward to the day I can afford my own place, have a new experience.  Looking forward to sharing my life with somebody, eventually starting a family and all around enjoying life and living comfortably.  And though that could be a long ways into the future- my hope is that it will happen – I can’t wait!

But for now, I need to focus on the present and start making these things happen.  But first, discovering how I can make them happen.

A lot of things to think about on my birthday, 20 is a big birthday, though I have been thinking about these things lots since I’ve been in college, so not exactly new thoughts but they are becoming more and more frequent.  Just getting the day off has given me lots of time to really focus on all these things and decided I would share.  I know many others are in this kind of “situation” so maybe others may be able to give me some insight or think about some things I have posted to help them too.

Well that’s about all I have to say for now.

Cheers

Welcome To My Blog!

Hi, my name is Brittany Douglas. I have just finished up the Web Animation & Design program at Georgian College in Barrie, ON and am now looking for a graduate job in the web design field. In my program I have learned about CSS, HTML, PHP, Animation (using Flash and ActionScript 3), Databases (using DB2 and MySQL), photography basics, a little about how a web server works as well as the knowledge of how to approach and successfully complete a project all the way from client approval of the design to the final launch of the site. I am ready to find a permanent position in the web field, as well as hoping to become a freelance web designer as a side project.

On my blog, I’m going to try to post some of my thoughts, anything that I find web-related and try and keep everyone up-to-date on what is going on in terms of my web work.  My blog will be a combination of personal and professional.