Brittany's Blog

A place to share my thoughts on my life & my work

Someone I Need To Let Go / Wish I Never Met

Unfortunately there are a lot of people who just are not a part of my life anymore.  The effort just wasn’t put in to keep in touch so there are few people from my past who are a part of my life now.  The few people who are still in my life, are people who I don’t want to let go of.

Someone Who Has Made Life Hell

I’m lucky I guess that I haven’t had a particular person make my life hell.  There’s been points in my life where I felt things were pretty bad and it was based on how I felt I was treated by others but now when I look back I realize that I played a very big part in the exclusion and I have decided that there really is no point in thinking about the past.  It’s the past and there is nothing I can do to change things.

Someone Who Has Made Life Worth Living

I couldn’t pick a particular person but I guess I would have to say my family.  I haven’t had any one individual person make a big impact on my life but my family has always been there.

Something I Hope I Never Have To Do

There are a lot of awful things I never want to have to deal with in my life and I don’t even want to think about them.  One thing though I will say I don’t want to do is go through life being on my own.  I look forward to living on my own in the not too distance future but I do hope that I find someone to spend the rest of my life with and I don’t have to wait too long.

Something I Hope To Do In My Life

I hope to have my own family someday.  I’ve always wanted to be a mom, always has been my biggest ambition.  So now to find the right guy…

Something I Have To Forgive Someone Else For

I’m not going to pick one individual or one instance but the big thing for me is I have to let go and forgive people from my past that have hurt me by excluding me or making me feel second best.  I also have to accept that I did also contribute to my own isolation in the past by not putting myself out there.  Regrets are pointless and get me nowhere.  I just have to surround myself with people who do want to include me and let me know that I matter to them.

Something I Have To Forgive Myself For

This is a hard one, I think what I have to forgive myself for is letting my nerves get to me and making me miss out on experiences in the past.  I have to let the past go and move on.  And I have to believe everything happens for a reason and hope that things start happening for me soon lol.

Something I Hate About Myself

I hate that I have no confidence and I worry about every little thing.  I know I stress myself out about things that don’t matter at all but I can’t help it.  I really need to work on letting things just happen and realizing sometimes there is nothing I can do about it.  And I need to learn how to believe in myself more which would help me come out of my shell and not have such a difficult time in social situations.

Something I Like About Myself

Something I like about myself is that I’m driven to succeed.  I keep at something until I feel I have done the best that I can.  On the flipside to this though is it adds to the pressure I put on myself.  I know I have high expectations for myself at times which stresses me out.

Something I Could Never Get Tired Of Doing

Something I could never get tired of doing is listening to music.  I like all types of music and love having something to listen to in the background no matter what I’m doing.  No matter my mood, I can always find something to listen to.