This is the most recent picture I have from at my friend Paul’s wedding in August. The month of October was actually not a very good one for me, I was sick a lot of it and feeling stressed (lots of different things) so I can’t really think of 3 good things that happened.
There have been times where I wondered why I am alive, what purpose I serve and what difference I make to other people’s lives but I think that is a common thought that pretty much everyone has had at some point in their life. I never would actually contemplate ending my life though.
I don’t know what my “life’s purpose” is which is how I kind of interpret this question.
Though I do think I had a close call a couple of winters back where I had come very close to being hit on the highway when I spun out. Literally think a minute made the difference of being hit and killed by a truck that hadn’t slowed down. Then I also ended up very close to an on ramp which had put me in danger of being hit if people were going too fast coming onto the highway so I was very lucky a trucker stopped and got me unstuck. So in this instance I am alive because of the timing and potentially the trucker who stopped to help me.
I guess when I wrote the last post I should have considered this upcoming post lol. Since the last post was actually meant to be about something I regret doing not not doing, but for me though I can’t think of anything that I have done that I really regret doing, anything that I wish I could change is experiences I missed out on.
I don’t know what specific event I would classify as my biggest regret but I do wish I would have been more involved in high school and not missed out on typical teenager experiences just because I was shy and let my nerves get the best of me. Though like I’ve said in other posts, regrets are pointless because the past is the past and there is nothing I can do anymore to change it. All I can do is learn from it and try to make sure I don’t continue to make the same mistakes and miss out on other experiences.
I’m guessing when asking this question, it’s wanting to get an idea of something / someone you could give up that you wouldn’t want to but could. I could live without junk food if I had to, every once in a while I get a craving for a specific treat and usually cave (because I can lol) but I could live without it.
I never want to live without my family and my close friends. I would never be able to single out any one person they are all really important to me and I dread the day I ever lose any of them.
I don’t think I ever get complimented on my appearance.
The most common compliment I get is that I’m smart.
There have been a lot of people who have drifted away from me. I did make an effort to keep in touch with them but it got to the point where all the effort was on my part and eventually we have lost touch. Maybe someday I will get in touch with some of them again. I wouldn’t be able to pick just one person in particular but there are definitely some friends who I wish were still a part of my life.